I don’t know if any of you guys have missed me, or even noticed that I haven’t been around for a while?
So many bad things happened towards the end of 2018, and I just needed to take some time out – time away from my beloved Blog and Social Media. Time to think, time to sort myself out, to dust myself down and head back on the right path again.
2018 really was a horrible one for me – I’m not one to usually go on, and I’m not looking for sympathy, as I know that so many people out there are going through bad times every single day.
I experienced loss in a very big way in 2018 and in so many different ways. My long-term relationship ended in not a very nice way, and my darling Dad passed away very suddenly. Its taken me a long time to come to terms with everything, process everything and grieve for my Dad.
You try and carry on, but each day is a fight – a battle just to get to the end of the day without crying. I lost my love for life, I didn’t want to do anything, or go anywhere. I completely lost all my love for my Blog, and just couldn’t find any enjoyment at all in writing – something that I usually love doing.
My Dad was a true gentleman – honest, hardworking and always so full of love and advice – what more could you wan from a Dad? One thing I do know, is that he would hate to see me and my family so upset and struggling. He loved life and was so full of life every single day, and so for him – I keep going.
For him, Im going to try and find my love for life again, start enjoying things again, and actually live my life, instead of just existing – which is what I have been doing for a long time now.
This has been a really hard post to write, and involved some tears, so thank you so much to everyone who reads this.